Sometimes...

Sometimes I fear if this feeling would dissolve
With the words when I utter them.
The feeling of music, the feeling of harmony of sounds
The feeling when all my mind is filled with you
The beauty of you
Not the physical beauty but the beauty of your being
Beauty of your innocent words
Flowing out your dimpled smile
The beauty of affection
Radiated in the moistness of your eyes

Sometimes I hum this song which is but your eulogy
It's no louder than my breath or the rhythm of my heart
I keep it deliberately so
Coz this is my private song
Which keeps me company in those dark hours
When the persistent clatter of rain
Drown you in the past.
The song of you keeps me afloat
And that’s why I keep it close to me

Sometimes I feel like a thief
Keeping these words from you
Coz without you they have no meaning
Precious as they may be for my existence
To you they belong
Oh! And Do I love them inside me
I wonder what emptiness would be like
When I let them go

Sometimes I wonder about the future
When these words stumble and tumble
In a futile attempt to convey
The depths of my love
Would you treasure them as much or
Would you see the tarnish of banality?
Which years of reuse have rendered.
Would you see beyond the meanings?
And care to look into my eyes to
Dive into the ocean of my soul?

Becoming

My eyes are open yet, I not see

The desperation of our souls

The stifling of our words

The choking of our feelings

I seek, what I already have

But I know not

And strive to hug it close, so no one

Can’t take it away

This constant desire to be

In Control, the thirst for

Pastures of pleasures

Oh this conflict of being, the illusion,

Illusion that’s like a maiden, dances and sings

Pulls you, draws you to a mirage

And as you draw out your lustful hand

Only turns into a pile of sand

Like everything else

And then, in your light I become one

The purity of everything

The quiet of your invisible hand on my head

Sucking out the ideas,

Ideas of who am I

More so the Idea of who I aren’t and

Who I oughtn’t to be

And I close my eyes and in

A little tear I shed all my becoming